Back to a life with a schedule.
Everything is on time, and has a goal. Well, not so bad for those of us who
needed discipline and motivation badly. Need a bit of getting used to, but I am starting to like it again. In fact, I kind of like filling up my time and making myself busy. (Though I am still free enough to give myself a self-taught lesson on Gambler's Fallacy and Maximum Likelihood Estimate... and doubt if I really understand what I have read.*)
*One side-note: I know wiki is not a formal reference (though its English version is already the best), but what I found out was it is possible to explain many topics in half-professional's and half-layman's terms (
which DOESN'T MEAN the readers can understand without pain), but with PHYSICS and MATHEMATICS, even wiki offers only
pain and many more question marks most of the time...Not convinced? Try
Lagrangian or
Schrodinger equation.)
And as I was still waiting for the data, I even had time to think about a bigger schedule. I don't know if it is right if I put it as life's schedule... what I mean is there are many "projects" that need to be done in life. You don't have a manager to report to, or a client to please, but in many aspects these projects, with their deadlines, are pushing you equally hard. What is worse is there are so many unexpected things that happens which can interrupt your schedule. And there are risk factors that you can never manage.
I must have thought too much, but recently I have heard stories about people passing away suddenly, new-born babies (and among them, unexpected ones...), break-ups before valentine's day (and a touching story about husband staying with wife's dead body for days fearing others will take his love away...
till death do us part)... but we all think about tomorrow, and believe that there will be a tomorrow, as expected, and go as planned. We even
WORK HARD for it. Realizing how fragile tomorrow might be, and
how far my mind has drifted, I made myself a cup of coffee and try to focus again, on endless columns of figures......
AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER... HOPEFULLY...